i feel so dang isolated it's ridiculous i get weird looks and a kabillion questions whats wrong?why are you sad?is it me? no it's me it always has been and it always will be.i'm sawy i'm not like the rest of you i'm sawy if my moods shift and i got mutilating tedencies i'm sawy on my low days i rather be alone then socialize i quess its who i am the panic attacks the manic stages the hyperactivity and the lows to the point where i sometimes want to just die.i try to fit in but its so hard when your not feelig what i am i'm on the outside looking in i quess i dont really belong anywhere. when i get manic i can shop up a storm come home with the most useless cra hard to not feel like a bad fiance a bad friend a bed person because you know how difficult you can be and you dont mean to but you cant help it the mood changes are who you are.
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