Seems like every night now, I'm okay during the day somewhat, maybe cry once or twice, get angry or anxious for a bit, but generally content until I'm supposed to go to sleep. I basically start hyperventilating. I cry for hours, cant sit still and my whole body hurts. At this point I'm just looking for ways to calm myself. I'm too scared to take any medications before bed, because I dont want mix with what I'm already taking. These moods usually last until like 3 am, and I'm so exhausted from being angry, and crying. I want to find stability. I want to go back to college without having to worry about my anxiety, or the fact that i might get so out of control I'll hurt myself. I just don't know what to do. I'm going to talk to my doctor tonight, but I hate taking meds. Chemicals affect me so badly, I just wish I could go back to the person I was a year ago.
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