Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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Last night was the end of the relationship that ended my marriage. My BP is nowhere near under control yet and last night even though was something that probably was doomed from the start I see it as just another failure.
My ex-wife has forgiven everything and I can say that I still love her. However, I feel abandoned in a way by both my ex and the girlfriend. Maybe I am just totally nuts but I don't feel like there is any light at the end of my tunnel. I am sad over the loss of a great friend and lover yet trying to do my best to look forward.
What do I do? Where do I look for advice? How do I move forward? How do I not look back?
My ex-wife has forgiven everything and I can say that I still love her. However, I feel abandoned in a way by both my ex and the girlfriend. Maybe I am just totally nuts but I don't feel like there is any light at the end of my tunnel. I am sad over the loss of a great friend and lover yet trying to do my best to look forward.
What do I do? Where do I look for advice? How do I move forward? How do I not look back?
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
1)Stay in close contact with Pdoc and keep working ont getting the right meds.
2) See a therapist regularly - sometimes at least once a week for me in bad times.
3) focus on YOU and getting yourself well. If there is any chance of reuniting with anyone, this will be the first thing you can do too - actions speak louder than words.
You can find that light!! Being stable on meds helps us work on everything else and find the light again!
Wish you the best. Just be good to yourself and work on yourself! hugs!
Because of this and a trip to see my daughter in CA, I have dedicated myself to getting this disorder into remission. I believe that's the direction you should probably take. You'll be better off for the next adventure. I'm now going to DBSA meetings, I joined a Tai Chi class, and I'm trying a new med (lithium) and I'm digging deeper into my past with my therapist. I didn't know better for the last 5 years. I was hoping for a magic bullet of meds to dredge me up out of the hell I was living in. But now, every chance I get when I feel at least okay, I read some more or do a little exercise, or talk to the people at DS.
I will be moving in the next few months (I have to wait till some financial situations work themselves out) and it's very difficult living with my ex. I'm on disability and looking into subsidized housing.
You will always look back and ruminate about the 'what ifs', but it's possible to put things in their place and move on.
Try not to let this throw you into an episode. Talk to your pdoc about meds if you're not under control. There's lots of proactive things you can do to be 'better' (never cured) so that the NEXT relationship you have will be on sounder footing.
Peace, t
I know what you mean about the selfish thing. But, really taking care of ourselves is imperative to be able to care for others. If you were exhausted, you couldn't be there for another person, right?
If we don't take care of our BP, we can't function. We HAVE to focus on ourselves. It does get easier once you start getting the meds right and applying what you learn from your therapist. It just takes time and effort.
You'll find many people here care - we've all been there. Keep asking questions and sharing. We do understand. :)