I'm going ..to go look at your pictures..I'll be back...

Buggy I love you heaps. Love the fact hat you were tryng so har to helpnot only Virutal friends but ao th gil you had visiting. How did that go?
I got a good nights sleep last night, bub is teething night before was hell. He is currently standing at the turtle tank while they try to cnvince hm they are straing. They arent I fed them already today. To much text to read just let me know...

I feel awkward talking to anybody now, including parents and best friends. But I still try - I'm going to hang out with my buddy tonight.

I know you don't want to talk about suicide but please just let me add just one thing. Your daughter will be psychologically devastated for the rest of her life. You sound like a good caring Mom. Write a contract right now that promises her you won't take your own life and keep it close by. Also please check in with your pdoc or tdoc asap.

Check out my 2 new picts.. my grandaughter. :D I'm so proud

Just talk?
OK.
We had 68 trick or treaters. Only 7 of them were older or un-costumed. It was a fun night. Chel came over with Phil (a little rat terrier. Phil was wearing a cutest little green jester outfit. We had punkin bread and drank tea.

My son dressed up as the ghost of Abraham Lincoln, I made him a hat with a beard attached and he won first prize at a Halloween birthday party.

When I am crashing it is important to get more sleep. Is there someone you can call to come over and watch your daughter? Is there a friend you can call to come watch a funny movie with you? How old is your daughter? Did she go trick or treating? What did she dress as? My kids are all older now so dont go out on Halloween, I miss that.

We had quite a few treaters too. We did put a mask on our chocolate lab. It was a new years eve mask. It cracked everyone up, she looked so weird. She kept in on quite a bit too. LOL It was really funny when she started running around the yard with it on.

Are you still with us Buggy?

I've been real bad too. But I got back on my meds yesterday and found this site. What an incredable difference. I knew I was starting to think suicidal thoughts again and got scared enough to go back on Lithium. I've gotten more help in the last 2 days from you people than ever on my BP. I feel like I'm home, and finally found my family of crazies. Are you sleeping? You know it will turn.

Ok here goes My 3 yr old niece has beenstaying with me all week. Today our power went out and It was around naptime. So we snuggled in my bed and read books. Well I fell asleep and she didnt...
When I WOKE UP (SHE WAS SOOOO QUIET) She had gotten the markers out and colored herself into a rainbow, Locked the dog in his crate and gave hime the entire bag of bones, then lined his box with all the dog toys and her stuff animals.She also found the stickers Ill let that be self explaintory... Other than that she did fine...

OK...I looked at pictures .OK...now I have some questians....wedding pix are dated 12-17-2007....did you mean 06?
Or have you found the secret to the universe and use a time flux capacitator ...and move through time?

Next questian....well comment anyway......cats look REALLY WRONG sitting in cages!
Next:FLUFFY? Is that a hairless rat or what the heck?

Now ,you must take your mind off all other inquiries.And problems....and give me my answers....because I'm manic....and want ...NEED them NOW!!!LOL!!
HUGS
:)

Thanks guys keep it comin...

I got a phone call from my caseworker to tell me they were working on my counciling and that I may have an apt by next week.

Lets see... My weekend with my friend went well her mom didnt have a chat with me befor her pdoc apt so she got hit with a lot that I encouraged morgan to tell them (not telling them everything about meds ect) But at least she told them now maybe mom will talk to me a bit more.

We are thinking of getting my daughter some frogies I have a client that has them and she loves to visit them and knows they cant be held. She is 3 and would squeeze anything to small (would get a rat.. but would get squezzed.

I do usually talk a l0ot just today I am so not my self. I had customer complaint department lady that was helping me get my counciling approved call to tell me about my progress and I could barely talk to her. She called my case manager and told her I wasnt ok and to call me... I didnt even tell her I wasnt ok I guess she could just tell.

I know it would devistate my kids. I dont think I ever would actually commit suicide but I do have the thoughts. Not so much to kill myself but to get away. Thats when I know I need to talk to people and stuff to pull out of those self abusive thoughts. I dont ever want them to manifest them selves.

my daughter is 3 and she went as a princess her costume is in my pictures we did a lot she went to a party at school one in the apts we live in that I put together and then tricker treating and a community party at one of the churches. My son even came up for the fun... he got a free day off of school for it.

My husband will be home in about an hour. We have 4 new movies to watch and I told him to bring dinner as I wasnt getting outta bed to cook or anything else. I told him I was crashing and my pms was bad... I think he gets the idea. I am going to send my daughter to daycare tomorrow even thought she has been 3 days already (usually all she goes) but I havent had my 'mental health day' that I take every week and if I need one ever, this week qualifies.