Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Ok I know sometimes I can really talk a lot. I got a phone call and I just felt awkward even talking to her thats not me. Im not suicidal, but I find my self thinking I can jsut take a handful of my meds to go away and maybe when I come back things will be different. I rapid cycle and for the last 2 weeks I was on a really steady hypo manic state (I never get hypomanic usually) then from last nite to now I have been in a steady crash. I have no desire to be anywhere but bed, and Im having these bad ideas so I made my self get up and come talk.
This is not a ploy for attention or a cry for suicide Im just crashing really hard from the manic state. I am very tired (cant sleep Im watching my daughter) and I am under some stress but I feel like the weight of the last few weeks is coming down and catching up to me.
Please just chat with me, tell my about your holiday, or about your cute pet, or ask me about mine (I put up a bunch of pictures) just please help me find something to think about other then making it all go away
This is not a ploy for attention or a cry for suicide Im just crashing really hard from the manic state. I am very tired (cant sleep Im watching my daughter) and I am under some stress but I feel like the weight of the last few weeks is coming down and catching up to me.
Please just chat with me, tell my about your holiday, or about your cute pet, or ask me about mine (I put up a bunch of pictures) just please help me find something to think about other then making it all go away
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I got a phone call from my caseworker to tell me they were working on my counciling and that I may have an apt by next week.
Lets see... My weekend with my friend went well her mom didnt have a chat with me befor her pdoc apt so she got hit with a lot that I encouraged morgan to tell them (not telling them everything about meds ect) But at least she told them now maybe mom will talk to me a bit more.
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I do usually talk a l0ot just today I am so not my self. I had customer complaint department lady that was helping me get my counciling approved call to tell me about my progress and I could barely talk to her. She called my case manager and told her I wasnt ok and to call me... I didnt even tell her I wasnt ok I guess she could just tell.
I know it would devistate my kids. I dont think I ever would actually commit suicide but I do have the thoughts. Not so much to kill myself but to get away. Thats when I know I need to talk to people and stuff to pull out of those self abusive thoughts. I dont ever want them to manifest them selves.
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