So, I have always had a really hard time staying in a job. I start out great, but then I start to feel like everyone is watching me, judging me, waiting for me to fail. I start out doing great! I get all my work done, and then some; then 6 months later I only do the bare minimum to get by unnoticed. I am falling into that again, I hate going to work, I don't do anything when I am here, I want another job, but my kids need the stability, I have already been writen up for missing too much work, but I just can't seem to function... and the sad thing is, I know that it is all in my head, but I just can't seem to get away from the paralizing fear that someone is going to notice my odd behavior... I need to get back on my meds, I know that, but I can't miss any more work, so I can't get to a dr. I just don't know what to do anymore, I want to go home and sleep for a very long time!
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