I feel exhausted, but I can\'t sleep. Up or Down time is here. Wonderful; NOT!!! Do ya\'ll haveto deal with this crap too? I mean, i\'m taking my meds, but this is stupid. And in the end, the same thing will happen, i\'ll end up sleeping for 3 days straight, so that\'s like a week of not getting anything accomplished; not that i feel like it anyway? For the past week, I\'ve been trying to sign up for classes for college. I can\'t even make up my mind in reguards to that either. My therapist Dr Dawn Brett called me and left me a nice message. She said that she needs me to take some tests and she needs info on my parachute accident and what made me 1st try to whack myself in Korea (1994). That to me will be hard to talk about. I\'m not quite sure how to explain what i went thru; especially with the some of the memories. I just have this re-occurning nightmare. Mostly it\'s like the ground comming screamingly fast at me, then i get stuck in like a 50 fot pine tree. I never got stuck in a tree; ever. I did hit an ambulance once however, but we were aiming for it. I just hit it too hard. (cause i\'m a dummy sometimes) Anyway, i want SLEEP so bad, do ya\'ll have to deal with this too?
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