You know today was just one of those freakin days... in fact the last few. Were are my freinds? The few I have are spent I think after trying to be their for me this past year. I do not realize I am not better/cured only improved from my former "Holy Shit" state. I can act happy and cool (I do at home alot, I don't think my awesome wife could take one more unraveling)but inside I feel miserable, empty and cold. Truth is I don't know how I should feel, maybe this is it. Anyways check phone, no messages, no texts, no email, and not messages here at Daily Strength. (OK, I didn't expect any here) I am afraid to open up with those around me how I really feel for fear the few I still have I will lose. Anyways just venting. Thanks
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