the memory loss sounds a little like how dissociation is sometimes described by people. Sorry you're having no luck figuring what's going on, out.

im going to have to look that up

often a component of borderline personality disorder, FYI.

BBLou.Have you stopped to think that they may be right ?

Tell them what you have said here

and maybe get a second opinion. have a ((hug)) BTW x

maybe they are right, but not helping me with whatever is the problem..?

what u mean what i said?

or do you mean i have made it all up pluck?

do you keep journals , take them along with you , i cant remember much sometime , nor if im manic can i really tell them what im like when im down n vice versa, so takin along my journals they can see a little i was diagnoised afeter my parner goin straight to the hospital n demandin they do someting about me , i denied it all , i said yeah sometimes i get down but i blamed everything else that was goin on around me , i had a right to be depressed with the shit i was puttin up with where as in actual fact all the stress i was under was probably makin me worse n makin me see everything alot worse , or better than it was if you get me , if i was up , it wasnt me that was crazy it was everyone else around me that was crazy , i think at on point i told the pdoc that she must be crazy to work with crazy people , that she should get help , but through time ive had to admit that maybe i have bipolar, nae in fact it doesnt really bother me , anyway the point i was tryin to make is since ive started tryin to keep track on how this affects me , n how to control it , n get back to some sort of normality and the only way i can really do that is in my journals , i had a great pdoc when i was first dianosied but then i moved back home n everyone ive seen so far dont seem to have any idea what there talkin bout n i kinda lost hope for a while , but i have an appointment with another one tomo who is supposed to be very good so im hopeful , could you get a second opioion , i know i had my dx before , but i felt i had to educate the docs i seen here when i moved back through . sorry if this has becom a little longwinded xxxx

I meant quote them your..this Discussion Topic.
Challenge them with your own opinion of their procedures.
Ask them if they are sure.Tell them the sane criticisms that you voice here.

That's meant to say " same "

they asked me to keep a journal before. i did. they read three pages.

i have been keeping one on here and in a book, i handed it to them, the doctor looked at his watch and said, times gettin on.

then told me to tell the dvla i cant drive. then asked to see my mum.

i dont have the energy for any of this anymore. i want to curl up in a big ball and stay there forever.

they 'humoured' me when i challenged them last time and put me on the depakote and said if this helps, then we will know if ur bp.

today they said the depakote causes voices. but ive always heard voices and they know that.

dont give up on it cause if i had been seen by the docs through here first i maybe wouldnt have been dx , my pdoc really knew her stuff , ive thought the way i have most my life so i never knew any different , i would probably be described as a person who wore her heart on her sleeve but as far as i was concerned i was petty normal , sure ive done some crazy shit , but i just thought i was a bit eccentric, go for a second opioionxx good luck x

number 10, i was a bit confuddled by that.

Did they say that you show signs of anything else, though ?
Just concern yourself with what THEY actually said and outlined or explained.

Try not to read into or reach any false conclusions.

It's not about assuming what they meant...it's being sure that you have a clear understanding..without the need for conjecture or speculation.