I have recently been diagnosed with OCD, although I have had it for, well, all my life. same with the ADHD, and the Bipolar started showing its head at about 15 years old. I sometimes feel like my illnesses are fighting each other. Something on me is always moving even if I am in the deepest depression and cant get off of the couch(leg jumping, rocking back and forth etc..)my OCD with the yard and my withdrawal from the outside world (Bipolar)seem to be feeding each other. what I mean is; I have the OCD thing about my yard and how it looks, but then the bipolar chimes in with , oh no, your not going out there, then my OCD starts obsessing over the way that it looks(grass too long), then the bipolar again with the OMG! thats a better reason not to go outside because your ashamed and the neighbors are probably angry with you which starts making me very anxious and depressed. And when i hit mania, WATCH OUT YARD HERE I COME IN EXTRA FULL FORCE AND I AM GONNA KICK YOUR BUTT ALL DAY AND NIGHT AND THEN DO IT AGAIN TOMORROW. until i get depressed again and it starts all over. I am going through the oh no your not going out there phase right now but i know the other is coming. Does anyone else have two things that seem to be pulling them in different directions all the time. If so how do you deal with it? Also, does people bringing your OCD, (or illnesses in general) to your attention, in a joking way(like saying "hey i am getting up for a second, and I'm going to straighten my stool so you don't have to, ok?"), make you angry? I find it very offensive, is that my BP getting angry or do others feel like this too? thanks for listening, any advice is appreciated!
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