I have been diagnosed with bi-polar since 1995. Been hospilized more times than I can remember.I have had numerous suicide attempts. Right now I am having a severe depresive episode..I can't handle it ....I just can't take feeling like this anymore..no meds seem to help. I am in therapy 5x a week..which just pisses me off cause I don;t want to get out of bed or shower or do anything but lie in bed....Just needed to vent..thanks for listening.
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