I am new to BiPolar, although age 68, I was misdiagosed all these years and it has had catastrophic consequences, now seeing a new psych doc who has had extensive training in major psych hospitals. So far I am impressed with him. He ordered alot of blood work and wants to see me every two weeks for now. I am now in bankruptcy for a second time in 12 years. I kept telling my former psych doc that I was spending alot of money and could not stop it, but it fell on deaf ears, he did nothing to help me.
I worked so hard to reesstablish my credit only to be put on a medication a year ago that may have worsened my impulse control issues.
On new medication now and adjusting to it. Still overwhelmed and depressed. I seem to spend alot of time managing my mood and it's exhausting.
During the course of paying off my bankruptcy attorney each month for 7 months (going without medical care, veterinary care and food) he contacted me last week admitting that the employee he fired stole my file and all my sensitive documents. He said to prepare me for identity theft. He forgave my last payment to him, but refused to pay for identity theft protection, which I had to do. I have been very busy last two days filing out paperwork, contacting every agency to notify them. It's all been soo exhausing. I have to hope that my bankruptcy will be granted, if not, I'm sunk :(
My 1 year old cat is in need of extensive veterinary care now and I set up a Go Fund Me Webpage, so fingers crossed one of my friends will donate much needed funds. I am soo worried about him. He's a special needs cat now and has alot of health issues, which has added to the fluxuations in mood and depleating of my funds on hand. I am going to try to see if my vet clinic can work out a payment plan (here I go back in debt again) or I may have to find my cat another home, which I cannot bare to loose him. My neighbor offered to pay for his vet care this upcoming week, but I had to say no as that would ruin our friendship.
My former psych doc sent a written letter to my new psych doc and mis-informed everything. It was as if he was talking about someone else. I did place a phone call to him in exasperation over this letter, but he is not responding. He is retiring, I have been with him for 30 years and this was a devastating moment when I read his letter. He should never have sent me this letter to read what he thought about me clinically... it was cold and cruel which shocked and stunned me.
Started a daily mood diary so I can bring to my new psych doc. Also using my fitness watch to calculate my sleep. I find the more time in deep sleep and longer REM times I feel more balanced the next day.
I need to update my profile, will do that next.
Anything anyone can add to help get me started with this new diagnosis would be greatly appreciated.
We've had a great weekend. We met the grandkids for the first time and they are ADORABLE. They loved the pool here and we went swimming yesterday. My only issue with that is it is not a zero entry pool so not handicapped friendly at all. I met a goal which was to go swimming this summer although I am going to have to find a zero entry pool that i can use year around. I hope I continue to feel...
I still haven't lost my 4.o but I'm starting to wonder if any of this is worth it. I lost my job and had to take out a loan against school and the topic for this week is soft skills. They are the cornerstone of my beliefs, but I'm to the point of wondering if soft skills are just skills to voice rather than practice. I believe in teamwork more than almost anything else but have been written up...