Hello everyone. My name is Charlotte, I'm 22 years old and just joined this group. I have an almost 2 year old daughter who lives with me. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was in my teens. Right now I just got finished having a manic episode that lasted for about 9 months. Now I feel ok, but I feel i'm slipping into depression because of the things that I did when I was manic. I broke off my wedding, and broke up with ended the relationship the night before his birthday, moved out of the apartment and moved to another state. I even dated this guy who was 10 years older then me for 2 months before the episode ended. Not only did I hurt my ex by running off with his daughter without telling him, but I have hurt this guy I only dated for 2 months because the relationship got serious too quickly. I'm getting help now. Have only 2 more sessions to go before I can get my meds. Yesterday my mom found out that I was wanting to get back with my ex fiancee and she freaked (she never really liked him), and she tried to blame it on saying that I was lonely and wanted companionship. Why would I dump Tack (guy I dated for 2 months) if I was lonely??? Tack and my mom think I will see things much clearer once I get on my meds, but I don't think so. I had an anxiety attack last night after hanging up on my mom cause she was pissed off at me and saying stuff like "I will only support you so many times" and "go ahead and cry, I don't care!" I wanted to cut sooooooooo bad. (I have in the past) but didn't. Instead I punched the fridge real hard. Anyways, so sorry this is longer then usual...just have a lot on my mind. Thanks for reading. Bye!
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