My dad passed away 32 days ago to be exact and I have been feeling very confused. Watching him slowly die was the worst thing I've ever seen. I don't see a descent therapist and the free or sliding scale ones I've seen so far are not good at what they do. Besides even for these incompetent therapists, I would have to pay $30 per visit through my insurance. I can't afford that! I'm living on SSDI. Any how, then in the middle of my greiving I get a call for a job interview ( I had been sending out resumes ) I went on the interview and I've been offered the position. :-) So now I'm feeling happy too. But my mood is depressed in general.
I haven't worked for 8 years! I've been disabled, now I'm trying to get back into the working world so I accepted this position even though the pay isn't that great. I just hope that I can perform the duties of the job. This is my first time doing this type of work (administrative) before I was on the Help Desk at a call center for computer problems but I can no longer spend 100% of time be in one position. I have to move around regularly. My neck and shoulder both have problems. That's why I decided to do office work, because even though I'll be on the computer regularly, but you do have breaks in between organizing and filing, setting up meetings, etc... that takes you away from the computer.
I'm confused. I'm sorry if I'm rambling. My short term memory is pretty bad right now. Is this part of grieving?
I think BP and socal media does not mix too well. I found myself sucked into Twitter. I did cut off my FaceBook along ago. I am now only on Instragram (For my photos). Dunno, I feel relieved a bit. Now I am only on DS and Instragram. I also have my photo website to look after.
My headache went away dont know why I was expecting the worst .I went to my dad and we've be bbqing and doing scrap booking with my step mom even played games and watching movies .i really enjoy it so much I thinking about all the military and being thankful for there service