I have an extremely hard time controling my anger.My husband says that I am scary when I am angry.I become violent and I try very hard not to bang my head through the wall.I have broken things and yesterday I almost put a cigarette out on my forehead.I was able to stop myself but the rage inside is so strong.I sit with my head in my hands, fists clenched and cry and scream for a very long time, trying to keep from demolishing something or seriously hurting myself.My husband is strong enough to protect himself but I am afraid that if the object of my rage were in front of me I could hurt them...badly.This is frightening and so painful.I don't know what to do.
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