i been looking for a pdoc for 3 yrs..my gpdoc has been taking care of me.its too long to tell everything..except the last med i was on was lithiem..with in 4 monthes i went toxic ( 7) in icu 4 days i was lucky i didnt get brain d..well i found a pdoc got a appt the march 23rd..ive never been proper diagnosed..but my gpdoc said i was bp on the high side.i get manic at times but not the manic that often people get..mine is severe depression..but its set off from obsessive thoughts and heath concerns..alot of people are saying when you get into see ur pdoc he wont diagnose you right away..well i got a issue with that..i been having problems with thinking what if i just did this then wouldnt have to suffer anymore..so what would happen if i went to the e.r as suacidle thinking..what do they do from there if i had thew meds i need to stop the thinking the way i do..its gotten real bad the last month..i cant sleep right..im thinking way toi much..alot of obsessive thoughts and the manic is there but its me when im down its like a roller coaster..i been deppresed before and was put on a ssri..buty i cant take those now..i tried the celexa it made me climb the walls..i study bp all the time and talk with people online..every bp is difft..im on dissabilty been on it for 3 yrs.,.most pdocs wont take me cuz im on the disability..something to do with paperwork wtf??..i dont think that i would harm myself or anyone else..its my thinking process is not real clear..when i drive witch isint often i have to think about what im doing and sometimes make mistakes then i get into a rage of manic...so what happens when you go to the e.r..they have a ward on the premises there..i was there when i was detox from booze 4 yrs ago..i mean do they just talk with you and say you will be ok then send you home?? ive never thought i would have to do this..but i cant ignore whats happening to me anymore..i sure wont be able to waite till the 23rd of march..and then they dont get me on meds til im diagnosed..i thought these thoughts would just go away they dont just go away..its like that movie ( groundhog day) i feel like im living in the same day and everything is the same..im the kinda pewrson that is use to helping people out with there problems..im afraid to ask for help..what will happen if i just can't take it anymore?? what do i tell them at the er..and what's the process's that you go threw..and how long are you there?? do you get to see s pdoc asap?? the worst thing is that i live alone..my women is in the next city 4 miles away..shes aware of my mental state..i always try to make her not worrie..we all have problems..but when you have to get online and ask question's about ur mental state is kinda embarrassing..but were i,ll be going no one will care....SO IF ANYONMES GOT SOMETHING THEY CAN TELL ME HOW THIS WORKS AND WEHAT I NEED TO TELL THEM?? PLESE LET ME KLNOW WHAT YOU KNOW?? TKU JAMES
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