whilst I was in hospital this last time, I knew one of the student nurses. I knew her because she tried to steal my boyfriend off me when I was eighteen.

I told the doctor and he said, "Did she really, or do you just think she did?"

I am a liar, whether I like it or not.

Are you telling the truth , Simon ? C'mon....spit it out you Minx !?

I've spent most of myself lying not only to others, but myself as well. It is taking me lots of intense therapy and lessons learned the hard way to change my ways.

Atleast on here I can be honest and not have to worry about being judged.

I try to never tell the truth when a lie will do, so far as simple things go, like "Does this tent make me look fat?" Lies to answer such questions do no harm, especially to me.

But when I do tell the truth I feel guilty, like I must've done it anyway and am not believed. I find that smiling a lot and saying nothing helps!

Hence your Avatar Tommy!

I was brought up as a people pleaser and lie constantly. It's funny as I had this very conversation with another DS member. She thinks it's because we are women and used to keeping the peace not because we have BP. For instance my husband will ask if my son did his homework by himself and I will immediately say yes even though I did it for him. The wierdest thing is I'm actually outside of my body listening to the lies and can't believe I'm telling them.

"I tell the truth, even when I lie."

This whole post gives me the creeps. You mean to tell me everyone's lying?
God I'm so stupid. Where's the Shirley Temple Community?

It's in the family section.

If it's seen as human to lie..or at least a part of a sane language.Then why are you expected to be so squeaky clean ?

White lies...I dunno..yes yr bum looks fine in that Simon...stuff like that ?

Sorry to break the chain but am too honest and blunt most of the time. I do tend to be a little more subtle if a friend is trying on clothes, like..that outfit doesn't make you look like a brick shithouse like the other one did.lol

I might disemble rather than outright lie or try to avoid an answer altogether but basically I'm too honest for my own good.

nah I don't lie I mean what is the point...you're only fooling yourself. I think it comes from a deep insecurity and need for attention. When I am psychotic I am not lying I believe those things that I am delusional about even though they are untrue. I am sick at that point besides when you are psychotic it's not about what is the truth it is what you BELIEVE is the truth. I wouldn't say that because you are psychotic that you are a liar you honestly think that what you are thinking is the truth and besides you are sick.

My pdoc doesn't treat me like a liar he treats me like a person with an illness. There are lots of things that have happened to me in my life that I have gone over the deep end about but he takes them all seriously and he knows that what is important is my reaction to the events in my life not just if they happened or not. I think that is the markings of a good pdoc and I have one of the best.

I don't have anything to do with my family of origin but my husband and daughter always believe what I say even when I am psychotic. My husband knows when I am psychotic and he does his best to reason the facts from me but that doesn't take into account the emotional drain on me so I usually go to the hospital to give him a break from my illness.

For a long time I wondered if my sexual abuse was a delusion. I know now that it was a way of me coping with the abuse...a kind of denial. It is terrible to think of the fact you have been sexually abused. For a long time I just ignored it which got me into a lot of trouble because I kept having break downs. Now I know that it did happen and it was real but that doesn't make it any easier. At times I slip back into thinking that it wasn't real because I can't deal with it at the moment. I guess that is what happens when you have psychosis and sexual abuse happening in the same person.

I 'm Spartacus !!!