Do you ever just wish the story would end regardless of what the ending is? Don't you ever get tired of the trips to the hospital? The tweaking of the meds? The dealing with the med changes? Don't you ever just get tired of being manic for so long that you can't remember the last coherent thought crossed your mind that you actually acted upon rather than running from task to unfinished task? Don't you ever get tired of trying to explain, of trying to hold it together, not for yourself, but for those that you love because somewhere between them asking "Are you doing alright?" and forgetting what the episodes are like they forget to ask when you need them to?
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