Don't you hate the fact you tell your loved ones you are "fine" instead of being able to tell them how you are really feeling? I got so embarassed feeling low all the time I just made up excuses for not feeling well.

I do that too. "I ate some bad chinese last night" is my favorite one to use. people just stay away from me the rest of the day.

I usually say something Like I will be great, and smile the biggest smile.

I am noticing though that my MONTHLY CYCLE really does bring me down so now I am not sure whether its the depekene working or My monthly either way I am not High!!!

I am feeling rather low. Once again I wanna just run away and hide.

I actually got an e-mail from a FRIEND can you believe that.

I felt nothing except to say that I said everything was going great when what I meant was life is what life is I don't feel happy I don't feel sad

I feel comfortably Numb

But I am not comfortable with numb if I wanted that I would of learned how to do illicit drugs the rest of the world!!!!

I am feeling that way right at this moment. I'm hoping it was the new med my pdoc put me on that he just took me off of. I told him I'd rather feel something than nothing. I know exactly where you are coming from. I just don't care about anything. I don't fake though. I tell my husband I'm numb and I don't care. I can't help it, it's the way I feel. I hope it goes away soon. It's pure misery.

If you are on significant doses of anti-convulsants or anti-psychotics, they can actually cause a "blunting" of the emotions. For example nothing makes me cry any more, I try to cry and I'm sad but the tears won't come. As for the rest of the day I just feel hung over and lethargic from my night time meds.

My husband asked me this morning if i still find him sexually attractive, I said of course I do, im just having trouble showing it. I asked the pdoc to give me an anti depressant to help my sex drive and he put me on efexor saying that should cure the problem. Nup still numb to my sexual urges.
Im not numb any other way.

Sorry to hear those of you who feel emotionless, mabe you need a med review :))

I feel numb all the time too, but i think i've noticed this since i started on a new med, abilify. I may have to change meds, though the pdoc wants me to be patient and wait longer.

i know i am on a down cycle but this time of year here in MI my doc says to watch out for Seasonal Affective Disorder SAD from a lack of natural sunlight. she keeps wanting me to get a sun lamp i just havent been able to afford one but i'm pretty sure it would help

I do numb,anger an occassionly despair..i try to keep the lid on the latter..i had panic/anx in with BP..spent 2 yrs tryin to get numb, combo drugs & mindfullness..so numb cant feel,dont pay attention,loose stuff..I did this for 6 months, and then i screwed around with my meds in an effort to feel..back on meds now, u will get them back,and when they come back, boy do they!!!I "manage" anger by doing sit-ups, everytime i feel it coming, just do sit-ups til cant move anymore-takes away angst/or your too knackered to fight..does help...TC

I have felt that before. When I do, in the past I have made rash decisions to mix it up. Usally does not end up well though. I do not cry as easyly anymore, but i am a big cryer so it is fine with me. I think it is hard for us BP's to walk in a straight line. WAY too boring!:)