So my biggest fear, besides my wife cheating on me again, is that she makes too much of this BP illness in my life. It seems like every action I do is now equated to some result of my BP. She's really starting to want to get more involved - making sure I take my pills, talking to my pdoc, etc etc. Well, I've never needed that, I am medicated now (more on that in a minute) and if ever, I am doing pretty good (relative), so I think she's obsessing and looking for a new hobby. I've started weening myself off my meds, it's hard to sleep, and when I finally do, I can't hardly get up. Maybe it's not a good idea, but honestly I think I'm at the point where it's not that bad, I can buck it up, or white knuckle it. I'm normally at 200 mg of Lamictal and 300 Seroquel a day, plus a xany or two here and there. I've cut my dosage in half, only taking 100 mg of Lamictal and 150 Seroquel this week. Next week I'm going to stop the Lamicatal, stay at 150 Seroquel for a week, then drop the seroquel. Oh yeah, I am at 60 mg of Cymbalta a day, I don't think I'll mess with that, seems to work ok, or at least not make things worse. So anyway, now that I won't be medicated, I know I will be "me" and she'll have nothing to obsess over, god I hate that everything I do seems to revolve around keeping her off my ass about things. There's just no pleasing some people in certain regards.
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