My pdoc and therapist both told me (separately) that I am doing good in spite of my shit storm. That validation helps. A lot.
Right now I work a terrible schedule that gives me no work/life balance. But I am reclaiming what little down time I have. Saying fuck it and playing outside with my dog or meditating in the sunshine is good for my soul.
Speaking of jobs, I am under a hella lot of pressure. That’s just means I am doing something right. And thank The Gods that I work for an awesome company with awesome benefits (knock on wood).
My alcoholic husband has chosen treatment. CAN I HAVE A “HALLELUJAH! PRAISE GOD! THANK YOU BABY JESUS!” The past three years of our relationship have been rough, to say the least. It’s taken a toll on both of us. And we are learning life without alcohol- which is not easy. But getting to know my sober husband is awesome. And I thank God.
I am finally starting work on my eating disorder. It’s been my frenemy for 20+ years, and I am trying to let that bitch go. It’s really hard, but I’m ready.
My physical health has been pretty damn bad. But I am rising above that shit. I’m seeing it as a wake up call to get physically healthy. I’ve worked so hard on the mental- the two need to meet up. I got this.
My finances are fucked. Yeah, I’ll figure that one out.
Ready for my MIL to leave. Hope that doesn’t make me a bad person. She came to help with my husband, but we all know it’s time for her to go home. Having a third adult with mental illness in the house that is extremely unhealthy and codependent wears on me. But I do love her.
My Shit Storm is situational and I am handling it to the best of my ability with some damn good meds.
My anxiety and insomnia will eventually settle down. I’m sure of it. I have a lot to be thankful for. But I’m always waiting for the next shoe to drop.
Holy Frijoles, I’m sorry this was so long.
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Hi, i got a question for you, was it easy from the start to have clients?Do you have anxiety? why did you decided to go freelance?sam