I liked him and his receptionist. I had a secret crush on her. Nice lady. Attractive. I kept it professioal though. I am going to miss going there. My Pdoc gave me 6 months worth of scripts for my meds.
I called the therapist at the outpatient group therapy facility at the hosptial I goto. She was friendly when I was there. But I got her voicemail. Left a message stating that "Dr. Mxxx" retired and I would like to know if you knew of a Pdoc that is accepting new patients.
I did not hear back from the therapist. I will have to choose one soon. I have been pretty rocky. Dunno. Thankfully I have a house to be in, I don't have to scrap for rent. I think I am out of the full-time job arena now. I would have choose driving, but my nerves are not there anymore. My SSID claim is still cranking along. I am sure Ill get it. I hate asking my mom for money every two weeks (I am such a winner).
I don't buy much, maybe some take out food at times. A few weeks ago, I simply lost all hope. It's scary when you don't have any hopes and dreams. Its an empty existance. I try to do things around the house, read a bit, keep my room clean. Go shopping for my parents when they want me to.
Photography normally cheered me up.. But I don't feel like going into the city and paying for parking. The walking of the city streets would be good for me. I am sure there is no looting or rioting anymore. I am pretty street smart. I know where I can go, and where I should not go.
I was going out to the country for barn, silo photos, but to do that, takes lots of prep work. I have rechargable batteries for my flashes and other camera accesories. They don't hold a charge, so I have to charge them hours before heading out for the night.
I have locations in the country marked on my Google Maps. The problem is these places are way out, 1:40hr away from my home. Then trying to find these places in the dark is another thing. But "light painting" really can make some dramatic photos. It just takes lots of batteries. I have over 40 AA batteries and 20 AAA batteries for all my power.
I think Ill give the photography a rest until I maybe will get some money from the SSID. Also my photos don't look good if I am not in "the zone". If I had extra money, I would use Uber to get from one location to another in the city. Thats an idea I may have in the future.
Ill study the map of Chicago on Google Maps and see key places I want to photogrpah. Ill wait for abit Also in winter, I don't mind the cold, and there is less riff raff out and about.
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