Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I am adult learning to handle my triggers and I just have to say that I am really pissed that my Dad cannot see the pain I am in.
And that does not even come across as angry as I am.
He is a realtor and can find time for his needs, but not mine. It's just not in him.
He can find time to go to an f-in football game, to go to his house he is re-habbing, a house that is near mine, and he can find time to show houses that are in and around near my house, but he can't find the friggin time to stop by my house. Narcissist pig. No wonder I wanted to commit suicide four months after having a nervous breakdown. No wonder I feel like I do not have anyone in my life. No wonder I had to turn to G**. No wonder I am working so much on my relationship with me. I will never, ever, never get their attention. I would not be in this position, now, if I had ever HAD their attention.
MY PARENTS ARE NOT THERE FOR ME! Can I hear myself yet? Can I get it through my thick emotional, wanting, wishing, sad, upset, wishful skull??
Lotsa tears.
And that does not even come across as angry as I am.
He is a realtor and can find time for his needs, but not mine. It's just not in him.
He can find time to go to an f-in football game, to go to his house he is re-habbing, a house that is near mine, and he can find time to show houses that are in and around near my house, but he can't find the friggin time to stop by my house. Narcissist pig. No wonder I wanted to commit suicide four months after having a nervous breakdown. No wonder I feel like I do not have anyone in my life. No wonder I had to turn to G**. No wonder I am working so much on my relationship with me. I will never, ever, never get their attention. I would not be in this position, now, if I had ever HAD their attention.
MY PARENTS ARE NOT THERE FOR ME! Can I hear myself yet? Can I get it through my thick emotional, wanting, wishing, sad, upset, wishful skull??
Lotsa tears.
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Sounds like you have good reason to be so hurt and angry. It always amazes me that you gotta go to school and get a license to drive a car, but they'll let anyone have a baby and become "a parent". And a parent's commitment doesn't end with the kids independence.
ANyway, have you made it clear that you'd like to see you're Dad more often? Have you tried inviting him over or out to do something fun. Or try saying you'll go with him some place he is going anyway? Is he uncomfortable around you or just not a good initiator.
I'm sorry, I'm not much help. It sucks to have parent's who can't support us...no matter what age we are. Maybe the best idea is to create a new "family" of friends who can.
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If my Father can make an appointment with himself to go see a football game and if he can make an appointment to make money for himself, he is a big boy enough to make an appnt to see his daughter.
But, that is not who he is. He never has been. And that is what hurts me. And I am just venting and looking for support for me, not support for him.
I am looking for support for me.
i feel for you though. my father had severe BP and self medicated in front of me and my sister (at 12 years old) every day. He would pass out all day, and we aould have to wait until my mother came home from work. Talk about unavailable. I had to raise my sister becasue he was to buzzed or high to care.
It's easier to talk to people who are famliar with narcissistic people and how they act. With narcissists, they cannot be wrong.
I have to change, not him.
You're getting there!! You already realize that they are incapable of being and/or giving you what you want!!!
You're now in the 'pissed at myself for still being hurt by it' phase!!
It's very hard working through this situation, but it can be done. And once you manage to do it, you'll be in a much better place.
Try to remind yourself that even the being mad at yourself for not feeling the way your head knows is appropriate, is a sign that you are getting there!!
Good luck. Once you finally DO get to that point, it will be so much better!!!
Take care!!!