The neighbor who ajoins the wall with me constantly sets off fires in the kitchen. They put on something to cook on the stove and then leave to let the kitchen catch fire. This has been going on for the past 2 years and management has done nothing about it.
On the other side of me is the main pipe for gas.
Each time they have a fire, I am the only one on the floor and of course I see and hear the alarm. Every time I call for help, I get crucified by being a drama queen and over reacting by calling 911 for help to put out the fire.
So, today, on goes the smoke detector and it goes on and on and on and never goes off. I walk out into the hallway and see black smoke coming out under the front door. So, instead of calling 911 this time I run to the managers office and found no one there. Then grabbed a neighbor who found them and I sent her to tell them. I will be smelling smoke for days now in my home and I have asthma.
Yesterday I saw on their exterior shelt a lit candle, so it has got me wondering if these are truly pyromanics living beside me.
In any event, I wrote an email to property management asking for the correct protocol when this happens. Now I know to call 911, but in this community one just does not call 911. Oh and the last time I went in to help maintenance put out the fire, i was told by property maintenance that I could be evicted by trespassing. So, this is the hard line I deal with where I live.
So, fire is very triggering for me, so heading up the Hypomanic trail tonight. Called my psych doc and she increased my Zyprexa, so hoping this helps.............. some. Usually the night after a fire I am too afraid to sleep, so will just curl up on my recliner and try to rock myself a bit.
The crisis is over with, with the property, but for me the crisis just keeps on going.
But I stopped taking my meds. I had taken 15 of them consistently. Each day was worse and worse. I didn't take it last night and today I actually felt mostly normal. I know you're not supposed to just stop but I figured I needed to do it before I got too far in. I didn't have as many or as severe attacks today. No random ones. Just ones where I over thought something.. it's probably bad, but I...
I think I have learned helplessness. I heard the term awhile back. Here's the Oxford definition: a condition in which a person suffers from a sense of powerlessness, arising from a traumatic event or persistent failure to succeed. It is thought to be one of the underlying causes of depression.I have an appointment with my therapist this week so I'm going to ask her about this and what can be...