Having this is like being on an emotional rollercoaster. My moods are up and down. One minute I'm so upbeat and think that I can conquer the world and the next minute I feel like a worthless failure. It's either up or down and there's never any in between. I don't understand what I'm going through or why I'm going through it. I have always noticed when my hormones are out of wack that my bp is much worse. Wish I could find a happy medium but I'm beginning to think that I never will. Why can't I feel normal anymore. If there ever was a normal. Maybe what I should say is to feel what I thought at one time had been normal. Right now I feel like a big fat zero that will never amount to anything. I'm taking college online and I'm behind from where I broke my foot and there's things that I don't understand. It frustrates me so and it doesn't help that my concentration is off. I do not know what to do. I pray everyone is ok and I really appreciate everyone's help in here. You guys are the best. If you would ever like to be friends please send me a friends request. It's nice to know that I'm not alone in this. BP has affected my memory in a great degree and I can't stand it anymore.
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