My husband of 8 years has left our marriage due to him not handleing the Bipolar rollercoaster. I have only recently been diagosed with the disorder, as previously was thought to be severe depression. He says he cannot live with someone that is like this anymore. He has so much hate for me, even though deep down he says he still loves me. I get so confused. I have been married 3 times and I do love my husband.I understand he should not have to put up with my illness but it is easier said and done. I allowed him to get freedom and run away from me now I regret this.He always prided himself on loyalty and honour and this is not proven true, as he has left me behind to deal with it all alone. I am at my end to know what to do, I have 2 beautiful children teenagers that I am very lucky to have but sometimes feel that they would be much better off without me. I really need help to get better but my family will not help and I have no real close friends, I feel so alone and trapped dealing with all this shit. Some days I feel like I could take on the world others I hate. I am moving house next week and I am all alone. I donot know what to do. If my husband really loved me then he would have never left. For sickness and in health I think that was the promise, please help me get through this, I feel so alone. I am in need of help but not sure where to go what to do. I am only on Lexapro antidepressant until I get to see my Doc to prescribe mood stablizer whenever I can get in.... Has anyone been in this situation please give me some advice on how to deal with a partner that wants to be friends and be part of your life, but does not want to be in it as a permanent husband.
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