I'm at work, feeling a little down and I don't know why. Yes I do, because I think I'm supposed to be changing the world and making a big difference in peoples lives. How to do it is the problem. Now, I'm just here, boring job, go home do a couple things around the house if I can and then eat then sit with hubby and watch TV. We said we were going to start doing more to keep us active, but he works a long day(11 hrs) and I am not always motivated except when I get manic and that lasts a few days where I am super woman and then everything gets jumbled and falls apart. The weather is getting nicer, so soon we will be able to get the motorcycle out and get on the road. We went away this weekend and had a great time, but here I am again feeling this way, ugh! Up, down, and all around. I just can't take the nagging feeling in my head all the time that I'm supposed to be doing something. I just don't know how to deal with it so I start doing things and then realize that most of my ideas are so unrealistic. How, how, how, do I deal with this on a daily basis???
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