why why why. when will this madness end. i woke up on such a positive note. while trying to get her to get ready for school, she started up again. UGHHHHHHHH - how can a person handle this shit with the strength they need to survive and keep ones self intact??? I feel like I am losing myself for all my energy - what little i have goes to her. my poor husband - u want any attention - get in line! Something has got to give. Can i just admit myself into the psych ward - cant a girl get a vacation? Yeah right i cannot leave my daughter with my husband cuz she will turn her fury - hate and rage towards him and this will not work - i almost lost my marriage for all of this but we are reconciling at the moment. shit i just do not know what to do anymore - i am sick of being drained daily. can i get a witness??? if my family and friends knew what was going on in my home with the physical and vbl abuse from my 14yo they would think shit i am glad i am not her. well i am not glad i am me - i want a normal life - i deserve it - we all do! Peace and Love to all.
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