For some reason i fineally entered the rape discussions..i was always to afraid to do it .I dont need those memories, but i felt something unexpected.. I feel anger ..not twords the person that did this to me ..but i was angry because someone took something from me.i had no control anymore .And the pain i have daily couldent compare to the years of pain he gave me ...I know life seems to hard sometimes..but we keep on dealing and dealing and dealing .when is it ok to break ??? I am bipolar 2 with lupus and i feel like i cant contain my frustration much longer ..Im tired of ruining my house ..i want to hurt someone .I know that sounds crasy but sometimes i just want one chance to give away this shit to someone who deserves it.Im a good person.. why me .....why any of us ??? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.. nows when my chest starts to hurts and the tears start .i dont know what to do anymore ..im so hurt inside..please tell me im ok
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