its refreshing to me to read about everyone else's money issues. i have to say, i think money is my absolutley worst problem w/ BP. which is dumb because there are so may other good ones to choose from! i have spent so much in 25 yrs of marriage, i wish i could smack myself. and i do it again. each time i work my butt off (w/ the help of my loving husband who is also in denial about the fact that i suck at money management)to fix it, only to start that crap over again, of "there will be plenty more where this came from" "i need this" i convince myself over and over again that money will always just appear, i will sell something (i write) whatever, no matter what crap i just got out of. why why why? its so stupid and i know this. its like i just black out or something. its almost physical-i can feel it when i want to go spend money. if i don't give in i feel sick, my head hums. i hate this part so much. i'm getting too old for this, and i feel so guilty. uckk. i hate touching my checkbook.
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