I wonder if there is anyone else here who relies on their family for support to the degree that I do. It has worked well for me to move home to my parent's farm and live in their apartment. They don't charge me rent. It is peaceful here, and I have been able to stay pretty stable most of the time. I do appreciate all they have done for me. But my mother can be a pain in the rear sometimes, LIKE TODAY! I guess this situation kind of gives her unwritten permission to intrude upon my personal boundaries. She can be pretty outspoken and sometimes I find it necessary to just STAY AWAY! I really need to find more friends. I have been a loner, and relied on her alot for human interaction. Maybe too much. But it is difficult for me to be around people, and develop friendships. It is something that I find extra hard to handle. Online is one thing, but face to face interaction is really hard for me. I guess I rely on family for their understanding of my situation too. When that fails, I get angry. I know I come across as an irresponsible person sometimes to them. Often it is all I can do to take care of myself, and taking care of them is really above and beyond what I am able to do. Oh well, I'm just bitching!
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