I have felt the same way about my docs too, kttn. You're not alone.

But I got a surprise: When my pdoc left the practice, she told me on her last day that her husband is bipolar.

I immediately stopped wishing it on her.

lol yea if only they could walk a mile in our shoes yea i was a total emotional wreck saturday and was rapid cycling try aand see how it goes and use coping skills breath and don't let your mind have the upper hand one of my buddies is multi diagnosed and he sent me an e-mail the other day told me that now i know that i have a chemical in balance anf that i know it's not just me that it becomes easyer to learn to (shake the bats out) as we say so the gremlins don't take over and if thing get worse call your t-doc i'm not on meds yet myself and they are chemicals and we have a chemical in balance so be easy on your self and call your doc if it get worse hope this helps
muggz

I am just learning about cycling. I don't ever cry, ever really. Except I was depressed and watched A-I and cried like a baby at the end. Even my wife was a little embarssed.

But I cycle also, not as often as everyday or even every few days but I do. It is hard for me to conceptualize it because I keep thinking I need to be manic before depressed. Instead of doing good then dive into depression then good again the next day.

When I am manic I am scared though because I know I will be very depressed soon after the mania leaves.

What happened to my message? I believe it is possessed, time to call a old Priest from the sex offenders section in Jail.

i know how u feel,i don't know how many times i knew they were wrong and they wouldn't do a thing! i have most definitly wished it upon many of them cause i knew that they had know clue what they were doing i know thats wrong but it was so frustrating and i knew i would end up right back in hos. i have hope now i have such an awesome psychiatrist and neuro psychologist, they listen to me they know i know there is something wrong and try to fix it asap its so frustrating i ahve been where u are but there is hope

kttn -- There is Mixed cycle which is actually having both mania and depression at the same time (that sucks big time) and there is cycling which is switching from one mood to the other. Sounds like you're talking about cycling, not mixed.

Of cycling, rapid cycling refers to 4 or more episodes of mania and/or depression in a 12 month period. Ultra rapid cycling is cycling within a month or less and ultradian cycling is in less than 24 hours.

They all are difficult to treat, the faster you cycle, the more difficult it is to treat.

Simon, Just wanted to let you know I love your avatar. Also, the board has been doing some pretty bizzare things since they did an update to "improve" things a couple days ago. lol

I've been diagnosed type I, Mixed States. It sucks. I'm also an ultra rapid cycler, when my cycles are distinct, so I can relate to what you are saying.

I'm sorry you are having trouble with you counselor. I had one who didn't believe I was bipolar just because I'd never been hospitalized, so I can appreciate the counselor who doesn't take you seriously.

Hope you get to feeling better.

thanx mha that helped me as well you are such a good asset to DS glad your her hun keep up the good work *huggs* to both of you

muggz