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Missing my children

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My ex has my children and I only get to see them every couple to three weeks for a weekend. I find it really hard when they have visited and then leave. I get really depressed. As time goes on I start to get a bit better because I know they will be visiting soon, but once they leave again the whole vicious circle begins. I am really miserable and can't stop thinking of death. I don't think I will ever get used to this. The pain I feel inside is tremendous. I keep thinking that I should be tucking them up in bed or doing something with them. I'm finding it really difficult. I've missed out on so much of their growing up.
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Take this alone time to work on yourself. Getting better and self sufficent. I have the same dilema and felt the things you are describing. I made a deceision to get well and believe it or not it is not permanent. Things do change and as mommy gets well day after day, kids will want to be near you more and your rights will have to be reconsidered if not a household change atleast more visitation. You owe this to your children.
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It's not that the kids don't want to visit. I live 3 hours drive away and at the moment I don't have a car do I have to rely on my ex bringing them. They can only come on the weekend or holiday because of school. I just feel I'm missing so much of their every day lives.
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I'm really sorry to hear you're having to endure this kind of pain...I've been there.
Instead of focusing on the pain, can you maybe focus on how to get transportation so you can see your kids more often? What circumstances led him to get the kids and not you? Is there anything you can do to change those circumstances?
Just remember, too, that you are their mom and they know that. They will still love you deep in their hearts if you love them. Write them letters, send them packages, think of other things to send them that will help them know you love them and it will help you to connect with them.
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They have been with their dad for too long now (long story). They are set in their ways. Also, I am not working because I am unable to at the moment, so I am not financially secure whereas their dad has a good job with good pay and can easily finance them. I live too far away to see them during the week.
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