My last thread was about Depakote and asking how others liked/disliked it, side effects, etc. Well sine then I've decided that I really like it and love how it makes me feel "normal" again. I thought FINALLY i've found MY right mix of meds - wooohooo! Well I've been taking it about a month and a few nights ago, I had a complete meltdown just like the ones I used to occasionally have before getting put on a stabilizer. I get violently angry, everything pisses me off, I break things, I say the utmost hurtful things to my husband whom I love more than life itself, I spit on him, I hit and punch him, this last time I grabbed his throat and left some deep marks, I smashed a kitchen chair oh and not to mention made a complete fool of myself in front of the one person in this world that I care for more than anything. And this gets HIM so upset seeing me like this. So what I'm wondering from those who take or have taken Depakote, have you ever had it just decide not to work one day but go right back to working the next day? I just find this soooo strange. I mean I definitely know how meds can stop working after time and then you need to change to a new med that WILL work, but I've never experienced something like this. Because stability-wise and mood-wise, the next day I was fine. Now here's something to add to the mess....ever since that night of the episode, my brain hasn't felt right. I am actually experiencing similar (and milder) symptoms that I did when I came off Effexor XR. My head is slowwww motion, equilibrium feels off, I'm not dizzy just like a weird, "wavy" feeling. I'm scared I blew a fuse that night that I flipped out. I already had an appt with my doc to discuss how the Depakote is doing so i'll of course tell him all of this but I'd love to hear from you guys. Thanks!
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