I spend a lot of time trying to appear happy when Im not, responsible when i don't want to, try to impress when I have nothing to be impressive about, ambitious when I am unmotivated etc etc etc I am so tired of fighting!!!!!!!! I just want to be true to myself, but if I go with that I am not often a very "good", successful, admired person. Everyone wants to be around the successful, goal-oriented, fun, happy me. When they ask how I am that's what they want to hear, not what I really am. Lately I am more the depressed, unmotivated, negative person. Then they all say don't isolate when you are like that. Well, nobody wants to be around that all of the time(I don't blame them) but what am I supposed to do? I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone. I am just emotionally tired.
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