Yesterday was my wedding anniversary for 9 years and I had a depressive day. I was in a bad mood thinking all of the bad things about the marriage. Then one day Im just as happy as I can be. I hate these moods and dont know what to do with them. I take my meds like I am suppose too but I have a bad attitude with my husband and I cant control it. I have had some bads times that have stayed with me that is hard to get over but why one day its ok and another you hate him and wanta leave. There are days I just wanta lock myself in the bathroom and get away from the world and other days Im happy being around everyone. Im bipolar 1 with rapid cycling I guess is a welcome to my problem. Ive been diagnosed for 6 years and its good and then bad. Just gotta love it. I hate it sometimes and just think I would better off dead but Im not the kind of person that could do it. Maybe before the day is over with the attitude will change, lets hope so for my husbands sake. lol Thanks for being there. hugs for all
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