after a 5 year build up of panic attacks, varying in degrees, controlled-ish by drugs. my panic has always been agorphobia. some places more likely than others, you know. after med adjustments, i got stability, and slowly under supervision withdrew from 300mg effexor, 25mg at a time.
I had been off medication for 6 months, eating properly,staying fit etc when my weight started plummeting..i lost 2 stone, and happily bounced down the docs to tell him how well I was. They did the normal checks, physically fine. I was sent away - nothing wrong. I had entered an unrecognised manic stage, absolutely textbook with retrospect. I`d two pretty, no, very severe PAs since the docs, both were extreme/stress situations-one a funeral,one a bank meeting for a client-roadworks etc..both times I had to run home with my tail between my legs, the meeting, i got my mate to take me back, did with extreme discomfort, safe in the knowledge my lift was immediately outside, i was ok on way home. The funeral was much nastier, even when I got home, I didnt think i would get a grip, but managed it.
The third happened on a nice sunny evening, my sister & I took our boys to see War of the worlds..ok piccies sometimes give me the shivers, but normally get absorbed...I remember thinking, on the way in-how lucky i was,and content..A lorry crashed in front of me, and i just crashed...9 month attack with slight drug induced re-spite..
Does anybody know what this is? I know its mania, but the fear of panic seems not too far away, felt like im walking a line- dont wanna fall in again...will i?