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It seems that every time I meet a girl I fall head over heels for her. I met this girl at a bar about 3 weeks ago and we hit it off from the start. Saturday we started getting intimate and now I think I'm really in love with her (I'm probably not but that's how it feels).
The thing is, once I sense the girl is even slightly losing interest in me I go absolutely banannas. About 2 years ago the same thing happened, met a girl at a club and we had sex, I fell in love with her then she said she was no longe interested in me and I wound up running into traffic almost killing myself.
Now I'm getting the sense the same thing is gonna happen with this girl. In the beginning she was always ecstatic to see me and now it seems she's losing interest. I think it's because I told her about my bp. I can sense it in the way she talks over the phone, like she's trying to let me go gently so as to not hurt my feelings, but I can tell she's losing interest.
I don't know if I'm being paranoid or what. Has any other guy experienced this type of thing? It's like as soon as I meet a girl I fall in love with her when I barely even know her. I haven't been able to sleep for days because of the anxiety of not knowing what she thinks of me. I'm starting to feel a little suicidal again too.
The thing is, once I sense the girl is even slightly losing interest in me I go absolutely banannas. About 2 years ago the same thing happened, met a girl at a club and we had sex, I fell in love with her then she said she was no longe interested in me and I wound up running into traffic almost killing myself.
Now I'm getting the sense the same thing is gonna happen with this girl. In the beginning she was always ecstatic to see me and now it seems she's losing interest. I think it's because I told her about my bp. I can sense it in the way she talks over the phone, like she's trying to let me go gently so as to not hurt my feelings, but I can tell she's losing interest.
I don't know if I'm being paranoid or what. Has any other guy experienced this type of thing? It's like as soon as I meet a girl I fall in love with her when I barely even know her. I haven't been able to sleep for days because of the anxiety of not knowing what she thinks of me. I'm starting to feel a little suicidal again too.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
peace, teresa
Of course I'm not a guy, but I have had a problem with relationships. Make that a BIG problem! Mine was more of a "spark addiction" than a love addiction though. The thrill of the chase maybe? As soon as it was clear that a guy was interested, then I lost interest. Why? I have no idea. It was bizarre, especially because I wasn't even after sex, money or anything else. Maybe I was just starved fo attention which is some sort of twisted part of my BP. The thought of commitment seemed very frightening, like being trapped in a cage, suffocating. I'm not sure if this even makes sense, but it sounds like you have the opposite issue here, which is the desire to be with someone.
I wish I knew some sage advise to give you here, but I'm so terrible in this area, LOL! I hope that you are able to focus some of that energy on other things though, & if you relax, let go a little, you wont scare her off. Best of luck & we're here for you.
Hey bro, look at how psychotic I AM..and over the yrs, it HAS NOT REALLY CHANGED..it seems that i can keep a lid on it for a few months, but then something goes wrong, no matter how little or big the problem is, something goes wrong..and what follows this is the fucked up part..I GET SUICIDAL
ALL I WANT IS TO BE LOVED BACK..i ; like YOU have tons and tons of love to give..just what do we do when we allow ourselves our true selves to be seen?
Do we become vunerable, we get into out head, cant sleep, cant eat, pretty much cant function...ask us to do anything & we;ll give you the only shirt off our back..ask to understand us, we'll try to explan it..god damm it, this shouldnt be this fucking hard
pat
I know, seriously.
If you think that a major factor is the BP part of it, maybe in the future you should not reveal it quite so soon, or perhaps reveal it a bit differently than you usually do.
And please start thinking now of ways to diminish or eradicate any suicidal tendencies.
One of the ways you can probably do that is to get some sleep. If you can't sleep on your own, get in touch with your Pdoc and see if you can get something to help you get the sleep you need.
The intensity of emotions has a big impact on your body chemistry. That change may be partly responsible for the downward dip.
In other words, your moods may start out as situational but then move beyond that.
Another thing you might want to consider is that you come on a little too strong for many girls to feel comfortable with, within the context of 3 weeks, and may put them off. Couple that with handing them the news that you're BP and it's not too surprising that many (but not all!) females might be a bit wary of continuing the on in the relationship.
Good luck!!! Especially with nipping the suicidal feelings in the bud!!!