Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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lost, isolated,lonely,pissed off

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I was reading some of the dicussions on the topic of rages and I came across yet another person that says, "Don't use Bi-polar dissorder as an excuse for bad behavior" I would like to know where you draw the line between bad behavior and legitimate bi-polar symptoms,rages,whatever. In my normal state I am a very loving,sweet compassionate person. I have spent most of my life not knowing that I am sick.I have done many things in my life that I regret.Not knowing that there was anything wrong,I grew up believing that I was bad,wierd,irresponsible,immature,etc. I have virtually no self-esteem left.Finding out that I am bi-polar was a relief. I finally knew why I was so different from everyone else and that I wasn't a bad person.So these people that so easily say "Don't use this as an excuse" are slapping me in the face and saying that it isn't my illness,everything is my fault and I am a BAD person!!
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I don't mean to be crude, but bipolar IS the reason of a lot of my bad behavior. Granted, I did make the choice, but by George I was pushed over the edge. Normally, I wouldn't go to orgies. That is not my normal behavior. However, manic behavior can cause hypersexuality. So, yes, I do blame a lot of my behavior on bipolar. Hell, I even blame bipolar on sometimes not caring what the hell I look like when I am so deeply depressed.

Others will disagree and that is fine. You know what they say about opinions and assholes. Everyone has one and some stink.
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Here here! But what I think they are saying is we are rude when unnecessary and blame it all on bp. There are times we do things we wish we could take back and that is bp but to do things we can control and blame bp is wrong. Now the problem lies in figuring which is which,lol. I felt exactly as you did when finding out why I felt the way I did and why I did the things I did which made no sense.
I can not control my temper at times, it just spews out of me, but I can control how I handle it after, like apologizing.
Shelly4
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I dont believe anyone specifically said you were a bad person. And I would never say that controlling our cycles is easy. I have spent 30 years learning coping skills to control my behavior and I still have some periods of time that it is difficult. I believe what we mean when we say "dont blame bipolar disorder for your behavior" is dont let the disorder control you or be who you are. You can learn to subdue or quell anger. You can learn to respect others. You can learn coping skills to help you through cycles. You can learn to live with your disorder and not blame "everything" that happens on it. To do that you have to heal from the inside out. We have to take time to face our demons head on and forgive and heal. Otherwise other emotions are exemplified and magnified and we tend to blame the disorder. We have to take responsibility for "who" we are and form our own identity apart from the disorder. We cant say "I beat that guy up cuz I am bipolar", "I screamed at them and broke a lamp" cuz I am bipolar, etc. There are ways to stop that behavior. The anger may remain inside us but we dont have to take it out on everyone else and blame it on the disorder. I hope this helps. Hugs
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Thank-you!!
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It is very hard to distinguish. I have a very hard time controlling anger.Lately i have felt like putting my head through a wall but i haven't yet. I guess that's the first step.
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