Feeling crappy because I can't get creative. Normally this time of year I get manic and that gives me a jolt of creativity. I haven't been manic and can't come up with one freaking idea. I used to say I didn't miss being manic. I lied. My arts and crafts aren't groundbreaking stuff, but it is a large part of my identity. It is an outlet. An outlet I feel like I have no longer. Frustrated. Just frustrated.
So I am training on a different floor T work. The girl who is supposed to be training me isn't. She doesn't explain anything and walks around like I'm not even here. I am so mad! I am supposed to train with her again next. Week but I'd rather just be by myself. Should I ask my boss not to put me with this girl again or say so thing to the nurse? I don't know what to do.
I'm having one those depression spells where I can hardly move. I'm crying a lot, my body feels extremely tired and weak, there's so much emotional pain in my head and I have no motivation.I know this is a chemical imbalance but it seems like so much more.It's one of those times I want someone to hold and comfort me but thete's nobody nearby that can do that for me. It's like I'm becoming a...