I am having one of those I-feel-like-I-am-losing-my-mind episodes. My anxiety has been bad for over a month, so I finally let my pdoc up my clonazepam. I cry often and for no reason. I am overly sensitive. I am crabby. I have thoughts of death and self-injury. My sex drive has disappeared. I feel discouraged about almost everything. I am angry alot. I feel like running away. I am having trouble concentrating. My period has lasted 8 days, and not sure it is over today on Day 9. I had to bail on one of my work commitments yesterdy b/c I couldnt handle talking to inpatients in a psych unit (guess I was feeling just a little too close to what they are going through). I have little motivation and even less energy. I want to stay in bed and hide. I don't feel like I am getting through to my therapist. I feel like it takes monumental effort to get anything done. Most of all, I am pissed off to be having an episode after working so hard to get to a more engaged, active life. Shit. Guess this sounds like depression. Don't know what to do about it, so guess I will just keep plugging away.
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