I think I'm losing it, been in a nasty mixed state and have not slept in days, now I'm ready to start raging! NO money so the hospital is not an option, I was fine an hour ago!!!!!!!! Can't take this. Then my sneaky, lying ex had the fuckin balls to get on here and read my journal and throw me under the bus by telling my family what a piece of shit whackjob I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I need to vent and try to calm down. Taken every drug under the sun and now I'm a raging lunatic pacing back and forth about to start punching holes in the wall. I can't take this I want this fucking thunderstorm in my head to stop now! Just feel like telling the world to fuck of!!! YES I SAID FUCK OFF!! I am one angry and raging bitch!!
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