I feel like a total loser. I have no career, no hobbies I can stick with, a burnout job, I quit school for the second time. Cant pick something to take if I did live close enough to a college. I have a husband that works all the time and a house that is really messy. I feel like I am totally worthless to the world. If I do start a new project everyone jumps on it and puts it down, tells me I cant do it why bother. Getting a little tired of the low expectations people have of me. I am living up to them tho. I think Im becoming a hypochondriac. My passtime seems to be going to doctors more and more. Im I fucked up or lazy???
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