Im in the slow process of awaiting Social security disability. Im severely bipolar,have depression,anxiety,im basically a cluster fuck of mental illnesses.
I live about 4 states away from my family with my fiance,Ive tried making friends but everyone wants to go out and do things that involve money,transportation and generally things that I have no access to.
Ive made a few conversations with a few people but they always fall flat and no one really seems interested in being "my friend" so that brings me to this.
My fiance works 5 days a week,we have zero money to go out or have any kind of social life because of so many bills,So that literally leaves me sitting here week after week struggling to find things to do to fill my time to distract me from the fact that I have no life what so ever.
Oftentimes I get very depressed because I have nothing to do,people tell me to get a hobby and dont get me wrong ive tried but i always get so bored so quickly ajd get depressed again.
I just wish I had something to do. Most days I sleep all day and am up all night so that hinders me as well,Ive tried getting my days and nights straight but inevitably they always end up mixed up so Theres no point in even trying with that.
I dont know how to live a normal life and be a normal person,what do people do who dont work,or have any family or friends or even a ride for that matter?
I need something to occupy me constantly,something that will occupy me for an hour or so really isnt going to make that much of a difference.
I feel so helpless
My EAP suggested I come to this site to find support, since there don't seem to be any Women's Groups in my area. So please bear with me, this is kind of my introduction post...My husband suffers from bipolar 1, childhood based PTSD and ADD. We've been together since 2005 after he helped pull me out of a different toxic relationship. Before we were married in 2013, I helped him get access to...