To be more specific, I've been having a lack of enjoyment in everything really. Not that I was ever very enthusiastic about life in general but more than not the thought of me just disappearing is the most comforting. Don't get me wrong, I'm not selfish enough to kill myself although in the past I've been very selfish and attempted it. I just have so many feelings that I end up turning into a hate and I know it's poisonous to let hate build up. I mean I feel so loathsome of myself most times for if nothing else just feeling the way I do. I've convinced myself in the past that everything but myself was to blame but I'm coming to terms with the fact that I'm my own worst enemy & I'm really good at making myself miserable. I just would like any advice on trying to change the way I've been thinking lately. Any help would be much appreciated.
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