Going through a really hard time right now. My partner wants me to move out. She supposedly wants to stay together but just with us living apart. I told her so many months ago over and over again that I knew my illness was too much for her but she kept insisting that she wanted to make things work. She treats me like I am my illness. She blames every single emotion I have on bp. It is so hard to know what is a genuine human emotion versus my illness. Anyway, last night we got into another huge argument and she is kicking me out knowing I have my cat and I am on unemployment. At first she told me, "Well you have slept in your car before right?" I was so blown away that this woman who supposedly loves me so much and who supposedly wants to be supportive of what I am going through with my illness, could even look at me and say that. That she would be perfectly fine with me and my cat having to live in my car. I have never felt more alone in my life. I have never felt more rejected. Now she is telling me she will give me a couple weeks to find something. Once again, living on unemployment right now until I can get a job and having my cat...it will not be an easy thing to do. I am already so stressed out over my illness and how it makes me feel...having my partner kick me out is the worst possible thing that can happen to me right now the way I am already in a depression. I really could use some words of encouragement right now. I feel so alone and so scared about everything. Thanks for listening.
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