Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
i'm still really recently recovering from some major episodes this year. we're still getting me up to the level of lamictal that's therapeutic for me (i'm scared now because 400 is the max and i'm up to 300).
but anyway. sometimes i really have to fight depression every day.
do you ever find that little tiny things can shake yr entire mood?
today i had some difficulty with itunes & for a minute i thought i had accidentally erased all my music. i started crying.
even though I now see that I DIDN'T erase all my music, i'm now depressed as hell.
i'm getting really annoyed with myself lately. i swear. the tiniest things, the tiniest things shift my mood.
but anyway. sometimes i really have to fight depression every day.
do you ever find that little tiny things can shake yr entire mood?
today i had some difficulty with itunes & for a minute i thought i had accidentally erased all my music. i started crying.
even though I now see that I DIDN'T erase all my music, i'm now depressed as hell.
i'm getting really annoyed with myself lately. i swear. the tiniest things, the tiniest things shift my mood.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I was irate.
avocados aren't the same as they were out west.
i was looking for a ripe one at the store and cried.
you've never had a good avocado then
hahaha
kidding
I got really frustrated with myself about last night. I had been making progress for the last month, an EMDR session each week, some med adjustments & marked improvement with my coping skills. Then BLAM!
The anniversary of my aunt's suicide, some thread last night & the next thing I knew I was shaking, in tears & so irate that I wanted to leap through the screen & avenge something, though I don't even know what. Today I feel a bit set back.
A few steps forward, & then a few more back. But we just have to keep going. I am about to just 'get back up on the horse' right now, ride it into town & go do some basic everyday life stuff today. Forgive yourself, & go on. Sometimes I question how much of this is really even related to BP? Perhaps we are just showing some regular human emotions, which we are all entitled to :)
with each broken shoelace
out of one hundred broken shoelaces,
one man, one woman, one
thing
enters a
madhouse.
so be careful
when you
bend over.
sorry. i had to.
Really.