Do any of you guys feel like in alot of ways you are still a child, I mean childlike....maybe even sometimes childish, but mostly child-like. I know there is all this talk these days about nurturing the "inner child" but i feel like my "inner child" is so alive, I'm like a wild stallian without any reigns...or alone in the ocean on a little dingy being blown around by a wild wind...I don't know, I have just always struggled with feeling so deeply, and being affected sooo much by this world, and often I am so crazily impulsive, like a little child without a caring adult to hold my hand and kindly pull me back and keep me safe from myself....and others...I think when I am faithfully on my medicine, I am so much more safer, and I am so much more stable, and I even feel more like a "grown up", or adult, which I am.
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Sorry I've been gone so long. I started working in October and then things got crazy. For a while I was working 80 hour weeks and now I'm down to 60 hour weeks. Moved into my own place and just trying to figure out how to make ends meet. Mama and daddy sold the house and moved out of state. Mama said she's had enough but once I figure things out then it'll be for the best. Not much to report on...
So I've dealt with my mental health issues as diagnosed problems for over twenty two years. And now finally with a diagnosis of bipolar. I feel like it is being dealt with in the best way possible. The thing is I'm amazed it's taken so long to get diagnosed. I guess the depression was always the prominent thing up until now. So here I am in "bipolar land." I feel like the new kid on the block....