I'm finally at my limit and I've been seeing a thearpist. I'm preparing my exit plan and need support from anyone that reads this. So I'm very isolated and have no family or friends not even co workers. So I've managed to save somw money. I'm not comfortable leaving with him in the house. So I plan to leave when he is not home. This process for me isn't something that happens over night. However, I'll say this and please share your opinions. I found a lady that owns an apartment complex. So I can call her and see what she has available. Now the rent and my bills will be a tight tight squeeze. But I'll manage its just going to be barely making it pay check to pay check. I'm debating if I should just call her and pay the deposit and move in what I can now. That would consist of me paying movers to move the stuff I have. But once I get the apartment. The only funiture I have is a coffee table and 2 bookshelfs and wall decor. I have no bed no couch etc. Part of me wants to stay here longer and save more money. What I really want to do is get a storage and start buying my furniture. This gives me a chance to save money still while living in this mans home. I want to move in my apartment feeling comfortable having a bed to sleep in a sofa. Because I know if I just up and move in. It will take ages to get a real matress etc. Now he is more verbally abusive. He has slapped me once, he sometimes pinches me when we're in public and I do something he doesn't like, one time he purposely he sped up the car and breaked real fast so I'd hit my head on dashboard. He mosty is verbal. So I don't feel like he is going to like punch me. Maybe a wall again. But I want to take time save. Get my stoarge ready with whay I need then move i the apt. My goal is to be out by like march because my job will have given me max ot and I'll able to save and buy my apt stuff. I am going to have to part with certain items I bought for this mans house. I decorated it with my money and my apt is small so not all will fit. I'm trying to sell some of it now. When I move I want to still have a little savings so I can grow it slowly. Like I said I have no one in my life. If I just up and move next month it will be a tough start and I'll.be able to get some stuff like a bed. I'll get a twin. But a couch dressers ugh. I don't want to blow through my savings. I think if I moved next month I'll be able to pay the deposit, I'll pay movers, I can probably get the twin mattress plus this daybed I want. I actually might be able to get a sofa. I would be able to get lamps. But I'd hold off on the dressers and night stand. I'd need to pay someone to mount the tv in my room, I'll be able to by a tv for living room. Thats it but then savings is looking rough if i dis that next month. I'd have to slowly build it. But it would be slow. Plus I have to see if she has an apartment available. I'm praying about it.
I am a heart patient and have been very active on a support message board for my type of disease. I have been very vocal as a patient advocate, because I was so screwed over by the military, and I have attracted others coming to the board looking for patient experiences. I have helped out five groups of doctors so far and just finished up a project this morning for another doctor working for...
I woke up this morning and I was so scared of I know not what. Palpitations, stomach churning usual things, except that for the 1st time ever my lip was quivering. I managed to get moving and did some housework, now its the afternoon, although my lip isnt quivering I am nervy to say the least of it. The day is dragging on and on.