Ever since I was diagnosed, I've had a lot of trouble believing I will ever be loved by anyone. I just don't think someone would sign up for the mood swings, the spending, the endless medication and therapy, the struggle with insurance companies, and the anxiety. I try to think that yes, I will find someone who will love me for me, but it doesn't really help when I meet someone new and I never let him know the real me. Even with friends, I feel like I'm putting up a "sane" mask. Although I'm well medicated now, I never really feel like myself, and I feel like I have to pretend to be someone I'm not just so I won't be completely alone and alienated.
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