Well, I refuse to reject you because I have a hard time dealing with rejection too!! So good morning! Let's look at the positive, you have all the love and support you need right here.

Sometimes meds CAN help. Although rare, if you can get to you doctor soon enough, he/she may can prescribe you something to prevent it or at least lessen the effect it has on you. It has not been my experience overall, but this last time, my latest med my doc but me on has at least delayed my depression somewhat. Hope that was helpful to you in some way.

Darn ex-husbands. You recognize the trigger. Try some positive self-talk. Maybe some journaling to get your feelings out.

Thanks Arts. That's a lovely sentiment...that I have all the love and support I need right here. Still, people only seem to love as much as they need to in order to get what they want (which sometimes THEY don't even know what that is) and then they're off. People aren't disposible and I'm tired of the reality that is...tired.

12.30am here. Must try and sleep...so tired and drained. 5.30am will have me pushed out of bed by my kiddies to go and make breakfast.

I feel numb. Kids are still in bed. I've hardly slept.

Skipping threw life, taking time to stop and smell the roses and then suddenly badabing badaboom the symptoms come creeping in! I fight back! I call upon all my coping skills, self-talk,journaling, prayer. I feel as if I can't bear another failure in a lifetime feel with failures. If my coping skills and my support group does not pull me out of the downward spiral I have no choice except to seek out medical help, even tho it makes me feel like a failure to admit the wolf is at my door, it dang sure beats the alternative!

I agree with 2Fast, you have to pull out all the stops and move forward and up. Sometimes that takes some serious pulling. It depends on your specific trigger. If this time it is dealing with your ex and that has created a feeling of rejection, some journal work on the gifts you have and the good qualities you have are in order. It is important that you take your focus off the rejection and see yourself as the true person you are. This comes with constant positive thinking and self worth therapy and realizing your value as a person. Realizing your ex limits your measure of value through his behavior and that behavior is his crutch, not yours. It is not worth allowing him to control your motion in life rather see him for the hinderance he is and dismiss him like brushing hair off your sweater. That said, it isnt easy, but if you make it a habit, it will become easier with time.

Thanks. The "hair off the sweater" annalogy is great. I even cracked a smile. :o) My little rays of sunshine have greeted me with morning smiles, jumped up into bed and given me lots of cuddles. I'm going to try to get into to see my gp as I need to find a new specialist.